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| so eah, i wonder who will read this...
update time!
ive been really busy lately. i got a job, which is cool, making decent money. im working with my best friend Kirsten which kicks ass. The best thing for me right now is that im with max again. i love him lots...we are just really complicated...anywhoo im leaving for m uncle's house on saturday...fun fun! but ill be back on the 25th i think...sry to those who tried to get together with me and i wasnt able to, that wasn't cool, but i promise when i get back ill be happy to chill. so yeah Garrett is gone...lol that is either really good or sad depending on how you look at it. on one hand no more grr, and no more fun with grr, on the other no more problems with max in that area, seeing as the three of us would have been in school together this year. wow this is longer than i wanted it to be. ill keep in touch. all my love~jenn | | |
| i wrote this when i was going through some shit with someone yall dont know..yeah i like it....
HOW DO I TELL YOU
how do I tell you
im not gonna try
tell you i want you
Im not gonna lie
but no longer can i do this
no more can i fight
how do I tell you
how do I tell you
your stil on my mind
how do I tell you
I'm letting you go
how do i tell you
god i dont know
how can I do this
let go of the past
how can i tell you
i thought we could last
how can i say this
that letting you go
how do I tell you
im missing your arms
how do I tell you
i wish i was yours
but there everyday
you send me out the door
how do i tell you I dont want to leave
how do I tell you
i wish it was me
the one in your arms
the one in your heart
how do I tell you
that I'll always care
always me loyal
always be there
how can i leave you
the one that i want
why can't I tell you
why's it so hard
when you already left me
tossed me out in the yard
how do I say this
I'll miss you so much
I may never again feel you
the warmth of our touch
this is how i tell you
this is what i say
i think of you often
each and every day
but I'll let her have you
I'll stay away
I'll no longer persue you
after today
but I will tell you
one time again
what once was broken
may be made whole again | | |
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i wrote this a while ago and wanted it on here so i can remember it...yeah...
i love you more than words can describe,
but the pain you cause is killing me
killing the one you said was your world,
tears flow down cheeks you once kissed,
sparkle in my eyes,
you called the light of you life
gone
perhaps forever
i only think of you,
trying to figure out why love has to be this way
why we have to be this way
why you have to be this way
screaming to myself
why do I have to be this way,
pain is a funny thing
somthing love can conquor
but it doesnt
the love i have for you is endless
but the pain from you
the pain from me
torments me
to save the light
to save the love
to save what we could have
im gone | | |
| Too much male attention...god why do they like me? i am SO FUCKING UGLY!! i dont get it. anyways the boy situation is out of control. Grr and i are so over, and now that im single again, all of my guy friends like me. HELP! went on a date with donny, it was fun. he is a sweetheart. Storm asked me out, dont know how to respond... MAtt still wants to be with me, but he always gets me in trouble...I miss max, i really care about that kid, i love him, and not in that "i love you" way i love other people, not in the fake way grr "loved" me...i dunno though i cant go through anymore with max, too much history, too many arguments, too many bruses (NO HE DOESNT HIT ME I PROMISE) I dunno, i think the safest choice is Storm, sry guys...its just he is removed from the rest of my Drama, and he treats melike a queen. I do really care for the others, but i dunno...i wonder what people think of this entry...lol oh well its my blog, and i need to type this out so I can figure it all out. Anywhoo, home is so stressful right now, Tiffany, one of my "little brothers" moms had a nervous breakdown, so we have the boys all week.. can you say STRESS! mom is stressed, dad is stressed and BOTH of their jobs are at stake, plus we may have to become a foster family for trevon (the 6 month old) life is really messed up right now...i need to get my mind off of it...but i need to fid a way other that weed, cause that got WAY out of controll and caused meto mess up school...i need to go bye | | |
| Still havent seen Garrett in like a week...i dont think we lovesme anymore...i guess ill just have to get ovr it *sighs*why does life have to suck so hardcore? anywhoo, dad is still a dick, have a bruse that hurts like a btch, and my social life is all fuckered up...I miss my buddies! they always make me feel better. where are u guys? Donny and JPee I love u! and i miss u tons. Yeah so I was wondering somthing...does anyone believe in true love? and if so do u believe that there is only one for every person? I dont now how i feel about this, but ive been thinking about it alot...so anywhoo, I am affraid Max is gonna get sent to jail, and that is scary. NO we are not back together but i have been talking ot hm, and im concerned, people make stupid decisions...I miss my jesse, but i doubt ill ever see him again, that will teac hme to find a friend who is like a big brother...yeah my dad is still a fucking asshole, he wont stop yelling at me for stupid shit...i just want to kick him in the forehead. so i doubt anyone has read this entire thing but if u did i give u a cookie *hands u a yummy cookie* thanks for letting e get this all out. love u ~Jenn | | |
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